My Inner Thoughts In Ink

24. Sep, 2016

When you try to live your life again
After all the king's guards and all the king's men
Have tried to destroy your whole heart and soul
It isn't that easy once the past takes it's toll

When the people you love and adored way back when
But you were too young and stupid to know what you know now, back then
Still constantly hold you to blame for their lives
When you made your biggest mistakes
And you weren't considered wise

When the way you hurt others was a mirror image of the way you were being hurt
And you forever found yourself being dragged through the dirt
It's not easy to allow them back into your heart
When you've found it almost impossible to make a new start

Why is it now that the past catches up
When you realize the mistakes you made were your biggest fuck ups
And no matter how much you're sorry for what transpired back then
Some will never forgive you
No matter what you say to them

They seem to forget that you travelled along
Right beside them as your rights were wronged
As your face was marred and smeared with blood
They seem to forget that you weren't loved
When trying to learn what life was all about
They seem to forget that you were filled with doubt
Afraid for your life that seemed to mean nil

You tried to end it so many times
If not for the little lives you held in your hands
You would have succeeded
Again and again

But... Now... Many, many years later
The time has come to learn to forgive
For they shall not know what effect they had
On a life so young
Nor did they realise how they took away that name they called you... Mum!

Written 18/4/2016

Rebecca Henley
20. Sep, 2016

Sitting here
Quietly
Contemplating
What life used to be

It never used to be this way!

My thoughts flow freely
Through my mind
What a wonderful life
I say!

No anger
Frustration
Annoyance
Incompletion

Just loving life
Day by day

No regret
Remorse
Questions
Wondering why

I just know
It had to be
This way

I wouldn't go back
I wouldn't change a thing
I'll just keep forging ahead
For now

One day I know
I'll be strides ahead
Of where I stand here
I vow

written 17/9/16

Rebecca Henley
17. Sep, 2016

We all grow old n our faces change
We wrinkle into little old prunes
We can't stop aging
And we can't stop dying
But we can prevent it from happening too soon
keep love in your heart
A smile on your face
Lend a helping hand once in a while
You're sure to live longer
Stay happier in this place
Just remember to keep that smile on your dial <3

Written 6/3 2015

Rebecca Henley
17. Sep, 2016

Sometimes I wonder where I've been all my life!
I wonder about all the trouble and strife

I wonder about my journeys till now
My loves that were lost and then I think WOW!

I'm here exactly where I wanted to be
Since I was a young lass at the age of 23

I dreamed I was living in a castle made of gold
I dreamed I was in love with a man who was bold

I dreamed I had a wonderful life
Extinct of all the trouble and strife

I dreamed I was wearing beautiful clothes
With jewelry galore
I've now got plenty of those

I dreamed I would have what I needed to be
And now I have all the above In plenty

When I consider what I have now
When I dreamed it all back then
When I remember all those years without a sense of Zen

I totally see what I have in my life now
I sit back and smile
With only one word in mind

WOW!!!

Written 23/2/2016

Rebecca Henley
15. Sep, 2016

You say I'm an inspiration
A lesson to you all
I say I'm but a woman
Who in this world is so small

I'm really not that different
Not really, from any of you
I just see many things in a different light
My vision is a different view

But I can't take all the credit
I can't say I did it all
I had many a friend to give me joy
And lots of pain from all my foe

My life is but a journey
On which I did embark
50 years ago nearly
With a few more to make my mark

I've suffered at the hands of many
Those ones I truly did love
And not once on that part of my journey
Did I meet anyone from up above

I died a few times
Then came back again
With lessons I had learnt
I tried real hard to change my life
Again and again and again

Now I've been given this journey
The next part on my track
I've given more than I've taken
Now it's time to
Be given back

I understand it's all about me
I understand I've got to let go
I get that it's time to put me first
I promise it will be so!

You say I'm an inspiration
A lesson to you all
I say I'm but a woman
Who in this world is so small

I'll live this life
The best way I know how
I'll inspire those who are in need

But now I know it's time to change
Now it's time for me!!!

Thank you for all your love and support ") I'm pleased to have you all in my life ") my life is something special indeed, why?

Because now I'm living for me! <3

Written 4/12/14

Rebecca Henley